3.11.2010
Pregnant or Not Pregnant.......To get pregnant or to wait......Those are the questions!
For the last few days I have been either waking up in the night feeling nauseous, or feeling nauseous in the morning for a bit. I never been one to eat breakfast nor am I hungry for breakfast, but lately, I have been hungry when I wake up, and I will eat something then be hungry again within about 2 hours. I am on birth control, but I know that is not always 100%. Now here's the thing...
If I am pregnant, I would have gotten pregnant in Feb, which means the baby would be born in Nov. and I am not totally against that. That is more around the time I would have liked for our next baby to be born.
As I said yesterday we have been discussing another baby, and if we were to get pregnant when we were discussing, the baby would be born in the same month as our daughter. I'm not sure that is fair to her. I have also been thinking that I am not sure I am ready for another baby just yet. Now don't get me wrong; I LOVED being pregnant, and I absolutely LOVE Haleigh, but I want to be fair to her, and I am torn whether she needs a sibling close to her age or if I should spend my time raising her and sort of spoiling her right now. Then when she is older we can have another, but then they won't be very close to each other. I know that if we have a boy, they may be close when they are young, but then when they get older they will be very different, and I don't really know how that works b/c I don't have a brother. I am the oldest of four girls all very close in age.
Ok, enough of that for now. I am trying to get healthy, and nothing seems to be helping. I have only lost 20lbs since Haleigh was born and she is about to be 1! I am short and I am not happy with my body. I agree with my very good friend that the number is not what matters. If I were tall, my number would be ok for me; as my sister's number is a bit higher and she looks great, but she is 4-5inches taller than I am.
I was just hoping that someone had something for me to try different. I do not gain weight, really, however, I can't lose it! I generally stay at the same weight until something happens and I gain a little, and then I just hold on to it again. I didn 't gain that much when I was prenant, but seeing as how I am short, and I was already a little big for my age and size, it doesn't look so good on me. I guess I just need a little encouragement, and advice. I tend to try one thing and if it doesn't start working within a couple weeks, I give up. I know there is really no quick fix, but I suppose that is what I feel like I need.
I am just rambling now, so if anyone has any advice or even just comments, feel free, and I'll be back another day.
If I am pregnant, I would have gotten pregnant in Feb, which means the baby would be born in Nov. and I am not totally against that. That is more around the time I would have liked for our next baby to be born.
As I said yesterday we have been discussing another baby, and if we were to get pregnant when we were discussing, the baby would be born in the same month as our daughter. I'm not sure that is fair to her. I have also been thinking that I am not sure I am ready for another baby just yet. Now don't get me wrong; I LOVED being pregnant, and I absolutely LOVE Haleigh, but I want to be fair to her, and I am torn whether she needs a sibling close to her age or if I should spend my time raising her and sort of spoiling her right now. Then when she is older we can have another, but then they won't be very close to each other. I know that if we have a boy, they may be close when they are young, but then when they get older they will be very different, and I don't really know how that works b/c I don't have a brother. I am the oldest of four girls all very close in age.
Ok, enough of that for now. I am trying to get healthy, and nothing seems to be helping. I have only lost 20lbs since Haleigh was born and she is about to be 1! I am short and I am not happy with my body. I agree with my very good friend that the number is not what matters. If I were tall, my number would be ok for me; as my sister's number is a bit higher and she looks great, but she is 4-5inches taller than I am.
I was just hoping that someone had something for me to try different. I do not gain weight, really, however, I can't lose it! I generally stay at the same weight until something happens and I gain a little, and then I just hold on to it again. I didn 't gain that much when I was prenant, but seeing as how I am short, and I was already a little big for my age and size, it doesn't look so good on me. I guess I just need a little encouragement, and advice. I tend to try one thing and if it doesn't start working within a couple weeks, I give up. I know there is really no quick fix, but I suppose that is what I feel like I need.
I am just rambling now, so if anyone has any advice or even just comments, feel free, and I'll be back another day.
3.10.2010
At it once again.....
So I have sort of been inspired by a really good friend to start this up again, and hopefully not neglect it this time.
So for the past, however long it's been (since I posted), I have been through alot. I have been through a very short deployment, that ended up not being anything like it was "suppose" to be, while raising a 9month old, who very quickly learned how to walk, and talk a little bit. I have tried not to kill one Budweiser (beagle) for peeing on my floor at what seemed like every chance he got, and even made a few new friends.
I learned a little bit from the deployment (as short as it was), and my relationship with my husband grew a little stronger.
Most recently, Jared has been home (for a little over a month, now), and we have been planning a birthday party for our almost 1 year old! I can't believe it is that time already!!
Our little one is potty training now, and so smart I can't even believe it. I don't want to rush her, but she has let me know when she is ready to do everything. Not to brag at all, but she has really done everyrthing pretty early so far. I only hope she is not too smart for her own good. I do want her to be smart, but I do not want her to be the genius 5th grader who is in high school getting made fun of. Not to mention, I do not want to fight with her because she thinks since she is in high school, she gets to do what the other high school kids are doing. I just don't think I could handle that. Anyhow, for now she is only 1 and we will just take it one day at a time.
I have loved staying at home with her, and being able to see her grow, learn, and change (which I am positive she does within hours!). She looks so much like her father it is breaks my heart at times (when he is gone, and I look at her and see him). I only wish she were around other kids a little more. We don't live close to family at all, so she doesn't get to see her cousins very often. Once or twice a year at most. I hardly know what to do with myself she is so good. She only whines when she wants something and of course if you don't give it to her, but she has always slept through the night, and never really cried to go to sleep. I tell everyone she made it easy to be a first time parent.
On that note...Jared and I have been discussing trying for another. I am really torn. I want another baby. I have always wanted lots of children (which now, I am thinking the 5 that I wanted I don't want quite so much anymore). Don't get me wrong, I love children and Haleigh is the greatest treasure in my life, but I want to spoil her. I want to give her everything she wants, and I am afraid if we have more, then I won't be able to do that. We discussed, that if we have a boy, that will be the last (at least until they are pretty grown up), but I don't know that I could do that either. I am already going to be 26 years old, and I know the older you get the harder it is to have children. So I guess we will just have to play that one by ear. The next issue is that another deployment (a real one this time) is coming up, and we have discussed getting pregnant before he leaves. I would like that for obvious reasons, but also for the fact that I think I can raise Haleigh and be pregnant while he is gone alot better than I think I could raise a newborn and Haleigh while he is gone. However, I wanted to lose more weight (as I have only lost 20lbs from when Haleigh was born) before I got pregnant again, and I wanted to be pregnant in the summer so as not to gain as much this time. I was hoping to get pregnant around Jan. so the baby would be born towards the end of the year as well, so we don't have all birthdays at the beginning like we do now. If I get pregnant before he goes, the baby will likely be born in the same month as Haleigh (as that will be the same time frame we got pregnant with her). I guess I am ok with that, but I am afraid of gaining more weight. I have a very hard time losing it, and with a new born, and a 2 year old, I don't think I will have much time to workout.
Comments are appreciated.
I am done for today, but I will be return tomorrow, and continue the topic of the last couple of months and having another baby.
So for the past, however long it's been (since I posted), I have been through alot. I have been through a very short deployment, that ended up not being anything like it was "suppose" to be, while raising a 9month old, who very quickly learned how to walk, and talk a little bit. I have tried not to kill one Budweiser (beagle) for peeing on my floor at what seemed like every chance he got, and even made a few new friends.
I learned a little bit from the deployment (as short as it was), and my relationship with my husband grew a little stronger.
Most recently, Jared has been home (for a little over a month, now), and we have been planning a birthday party for our almost 1 year old! I can't believe it is that time already!!
Our little one is potty training now, and so smart I can't even believe it. I don't want to rush her, but she has let me know when she is ready to do everything. Not to brag at all, but she has really done everyrthing pretty early so far. I only hope she is not too smart for her own good. I do want her to be smart, but I do not want her to be the genius 5th grader who is in high school getting made fun of. Not to mention, I do not want to fight with her because she thinks since she is in high school, she gets to do what the other high school kids are doing. I just don't think I could handle that. Anyhow, for now she is only 1 and we will just take it one day at a time.
I have loved staying at home with her, and being able to see her grow, learn, and change (which I am positive she does within hours!). She looks so much like her father it is breaks my heart at times (when he is gone, and I look at her and see him). I only wish she were around other kids a little more. We don't live close to family at all, so she doesn't get to see her cousins very often. Once or twice a year at most. I hardly know what to do with myself she is so good. She only whines when she wants something and of course if you don't give it to her, but she has always slept through the night, and never really cried to go to sleep. I tell everyone she made it easy to be a first time parent.
On that note...Jared and I have been discussing trying for another. I am really torn. I want another baby. I have always wanted lots of children (which now, I am thinking the 5 that I wanted I don't want quite so much anymore). Don't get me wrong, I love children and Haleigh is the greatest treasure in my life, but I want to spoil her. I want to give her everything she wants, and I am afraid if we have more, then I won't be able to do that. We discussed, that if we have a boy, that will be the last (at least until they are pretty grown up), but I don't know that I could do that either. I am already going to be 26 years old, and I know the older you get the harder it is to have children. So I guess we will just have to play that one by ear. The next issue is that another deployment (a real one this time) is coming up, and we have discussed getting pregnant before he leaves. I would like that for obvious reasons, but also for the fact that I think I can raise Haleigh and be pregnant while he is gone alot better than I think I could raise a newborn and Haleigh while he is gone. However, I wanted to lose more weight (as I have only lost 20lbs from when Haleigh was born) before I got pregnant again, and I wanted to be pregnant in the summer so as not to gain as much this time. I was hoping to get pregnant around Jan. so the baby would be born towards the end of the year as well, so we don't have all birthdays at the beginning like we do now. If I get pregnant before he goes, the baby will likely be born in the same month as Haleigh (as that will be the same time frame we got pregnant with her). I guess I am ok with that, but I am afraid of gaining more weight. I have a very hard time losing it, and with a new born, and a 2 year old, I don't think I will have much time to workout.
Comments are appreciated.
I am done for today, but I will be return tomorrow, and continue the topic of the last couple of months and having another baby.
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